dem beats

Or women.

If I cared about video games I would be a god. Pot grind grind grind grind.....pot grind grind grind grind. New stuff might scare me though. Unless it's new vagina. High Matt equals happy woman.

Yes. I don't know if I would want to try to learn anything.. but I can task like a muthafukka

Why will that help? I usually get a lot done when I am baked. I'll clean for 8 hours. Find out it's only been 2 then cleAn more.

I should pick up a sport. Then I could see improvement instead of decline. Thank god I know I can get stronger as I get older.

Keep pushing. This is the hardest part. I have to start cardio. Not so much for weight loss, but my calorie defecit is so bad I cannot power my muscles to have great work outs. So I need to exhaust myself another way. It's also for general health. My "stamina" is low. I can't run well anymore. Before I was fat so I couldn't run. Not as fat now but still cannot run. I used to cut a bit over 3 miles in 21 min. So sustainable sub 7 min miles. It was crazy. At 265 no less. My feeling is that if you did it before, you can do it again. I love the positive thought. 19 isn't 30 though.

My gut is stubborn as hell. Lost only 2 inches from my waist and 7 lbs since I started working out. But I can clearly see some extra muscle, so I assume something went ok. I need to detail the current workout and diet and ask you to spoon-feed me some changes Of course. We could hit a G chat convo if you want. Diet ultimately makes the biggest change but tailoring a work out does matter.

I am horrible. I just also have a control disorder so I beat it into submission most of the time. Or find a way to work with it. It just wears me out. I'm super typical in symptoms. An energy drink or 3 before bed. Drink some booze to focus. Hard to feel stimulation from most drugs, tired in the morning, awake at night. Hyper focus or no focus. Procrastination. I used to have extreme social anxiety. Enjoy stress loads and don't notice it breaking me ....

Do you have add? If you don't it would make a boring task even harder. Its amphetamines.

It's that or adderal I think. And I'm so low on motivation seeing my doc sounds like work.

I'm seriously considering pot so I can get all these things done.

Some people, also known as women, who had not seen me in a long time were extra flirty the other night. Kept grabbing my arm under the cuff of my shirt. That was a HUGE ego boost.

Keep pushing. This is the hardest part. I have to start cardio. Not so much for weight loss, but my calorie defecit is so bad I cannot power my muscles to have great work outs. So I need to exhaust myself another way. It's also for general health. My "stamina" is low. I can't run well anymore. Before I was fat so I couldn't run. Not as fat now but still cannot run. I used to cut a bit over 3 miles in 21 min. So sustainable sub 7 min miles. It was crazy. At 265 no less.

What bothers me though is I do everything. She does go to full time school and work, but I then support her in that. Get lawyers for work shit then help her write papers. I have become wrongly bitter. So then I end up not getting things done. Today will be a bunch of hours outside in the hot, then a billion phone calls. While doing laundry. Not even a stay at home wife does as much as I do. And even unemployed I pay almost all the bills and grocery tabs. I'm throwing myself a pity party about it.

Yeah....and a wife who wants it done in 2 weeks before her god mother comes to town. She is right though. I have been lazy when it comes to our home.

I missed yesterday's work out, and won't go today either. So I will have to do make up this weekend. Ill be doing yard work today so cardio is good. I have lost sooooooooooo much fat. It's nice. I have lost a little muscle in the process, but it's worth it. My waist is starting to become stubborn though. This must be where I plateaued last time. My arms and legs are getting leaner daily.

I have to buckle down and get a lot of things done in next to no time. Kitchen, paint house..... so much shit. On top of regular maintenance.

I just start with a smoothie in the morning. Makes for a fast healthy start to my day.

I juice most mornings.

Diet and sailor for me tonight.

What is frog juice?

PM sent.

Sensation. Brands new everything but case. Plus a protective cover and charger. Still has factory seal on the screen.

I know the comment wasn't to me specifically Ryan. I just don't always make as much sense as I think I do.... that gets worse when posting from the phone. And only 8 hours sleep in 3 days.

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