Personal probs I'm sure you all don't want to hear about. Just a sad week brutha. spill if u gotta man.... that's what we are here for bro! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Got into a bad fight with the Mrs. last weekend, lot of dumb stupid chit was said by me and I hurt her emotionally. Talked for awhile Saturday night. Went out of town on Sunday and Monday, Tuesday she came here at work and ate lunch with me, I thought everything was A-OK. Yesterday sitting here at work (12 hour day no less) get a knot in my stomach, thinking something is very wrong. I call in a relief and go home about 12:30PM, call the wife at work 2 times and she doesn't answer. She walks in the door at 5:30PM and I asked her where she was and she said she had some things to do for herself. I asked if she's cheating, she says she wants to be with someone else. Knife in my heart man. I ask if there is already someone, and she says yes. I asked if she was with him this afternoon and she said yes. I asked what they were doing and she says all they did was kiss and hold each other. She claims this is the first time they have ever been alone together. I know I haven't been the greatest and I did and said some crappy things to her, but I would never ever cheat on her. She said she felt unloved and unwanted. I have felt the same thing many times in this relationship and anger is the only way I have dealt with it. We talked last night and I think she wants to stay with me, but we will have to work hard at this. I keep thinking about her with someone else and it's eating at me. I think deep down she did more and will not tell me because she's afraid of what I might do. I am at a loss for anything, I haven't eaten since Wednesday night, I have a cold and generally feel really crappy and this is just adding onto the stress. I seriously want to put a .45 hollow-point through my head. I can't deal with the stress or the pain. I don't know what to do. I told her I love her and want to be with her, I've apologized up and down. I know this will not be fixed overnight, but she can't decide what she wants to do. I told her to talk to him and then she can decide, I already told her how I feel. I only want her to be happy. I can't imagine what the fudge I'd do if she picked him over me. I feel like the biggest arseho in the world. I can't believe how I've treated her, and I only realize this now. I am very very sorry to hear about that, the best thing is to not smother her, she will decide the same if you are all over her or with her as you usually are, I would give it a little bit of time, yes I know it is easy for me to sit here and say that, but I have been through similar messes numerous times just tell her you love her, and be there for her, but don't to anything that will force her to make a decision, women can be extrememly cold and destructive without remorse or second thought, so you have to weather the storm, she might be going through a rough spot, and she should realize a marriage is not worth ditching over a bad fight, , good luck ed, we are here for ya, if you want to call me and have an ear to talk to I am here for ya good luck, I know exactly the feeling you are having right now, I went from 195lbs to 172 in June because I thought I lost Amanda